Dear Ego,
I know that you have been with me for a very long time. You were there when I started developing my personality. When we didn't like to share with our friends at age 2, 3,4 and 5. When we started making friends, drawing closer to people you think we like. Those we made and those our parents lead us to. You introduced yourself to the other egos, that one that was with my best friends. In fact, you have always been the one playing all the parts. You, my dear ego, was there telling me about all the people we disliked, those that we were afraid of for no reason and those we called evil from your point of views.
Remember those days that you lead me to fight over the boyfriend and hating all those people that were not on our side. You hated them to destruction, you said we should not talk to them "ever again" because we were better than they are. You view was that they were not needed in our lives. For a very long time, we stopped talking to them and hated everything about them. We talked about how we are the only love in the world. We spent a very long time living in our pain and from time to time you bring them up like a mid-summer picture. We were sad, we felt alone, we felt that the entire world was against us, even though we were only living in my small village in a small country in a massive world. We felt sick because we were full of anger and hatred because of our views of them. You called them our enemies and it was believed.
You are right here hovering about looking for the next big pain. I know now you have the ability to come and go. You love pain and seek after it like a desert seeks after rain, I know that too. But right now, the One within me, the one who has now awakened in me, has asked me to see only through her eyes, those people from yesterday, the situations, events and all mishaps and good. She doesn't aim to disagree with you because she knows that you are always right in your eyes. She agreed that you are very fierce and resilient. She has agreed with all you have taught me since I took one your identity, but now she is about to teach me some new ways and method of living. She now wants you to rest - to take a very long break. She appreciated you and the times we've spent together, but she is thanking you for all the years you have been with me. She is aware that you may surface again in another way, but for today and perhaps this week, she wants you to be at peace.
Ego, stop picking on the small things that you have gone through, Ego can you please stop worrying about the people that are gossiping you, about the confrontations you had with your boss, the misunderstanding with your friends. She wants you to know that the divorce was inevitable - at the end of the day you, and she/he knows that that was not the right path for you anyway, but now my dear ego, you have buried yourself in so much pain and frozen everything even the sun. You have now been trapped in yourself everything that was once believed in to be good has now become evil because of that small change of plans, that word spoken from his or her ego is the very words you wanted to hear because it will feed you for a long, long time. You are now born into disbelieve and have stopped trusting anyone. You know very well that you are only fighting with yourself and nothing to do with the real person she/he is.
My inner person has just told me that from the beginning of time you've been able to hide the real deal from who I am. Now she has asked that I wake up, smell again, dream again, look up at the skies and enjoy its movements. She has woken within and sees everything as beautiful, she smiles at the silliest jokes, she now smells the dust and the grass, she sees the beauty in my children and loved their little mistakes. She doesn't want to get angry anymore, not for the reasons you ones brought and will bring. She knows that whatever the challenges are - Will pass away. She was made perfect and will remain perfect. She loved you (ego) but Now want you to end and terminate all your duties. I am awakening and smiling again. Life is extremely good.
I know that you have been with me for a very long time. You were there when I started developing my personality. When we didn't like to share with our friends at age 2, 3,4 and 5. When we started making friends, drawing closer to people you think we like. Those we made and those our parents lead us to. You introduced yourself to the other egos, that one that was with my best friends. In fact, you have always been the one playing all the parts. You, my dear ego, was there telling me about all the people we disliked, those that we were afraid of for no reason and those we called evil from your point of views.
Remember those days that you lead me to fight over the boyfriend and hating all those people that were not on our side. You hated them to destruction, you said we should not talk to them "ever again" because we were better than they are. You view was that they were not needed in our lives. For a very long time, we stopped talking to them and hated everything about them. We talked about how we are the only love in the world. We spent a very long time living in our pain and from time to time you bring them up like a mid-summer picture. We were sad, we felt alone, we felt that the entire world was against us, even though we were only living in my small village in a small country in a massive world. We felt sick because we were full of anger and hatred because of our views of them. You called them our enemies and it was believed.
You are right here hovering about looking for the next big pain. I know now you have the ability to come and go. You love pain and seek after it like a desert seeks after rain, I know that too. But right now, the One within me, the one who has now awakened in me, has asked me to see only through her eyes, those people from yesterday, the situations, events and all mishaps and good. She doesn't aim to disagree with you because she knows that you are always right in your eyes. She agreed that you are very fierce and resilient. She has agreed with all you have taught me since I took one your identity, but now she is about to teach me some new ways and method of living. She now wants you to rest - to take a very long break. She appreciated you and the times we've spent together, but she is thanking you for all the years you have been with me. She is aware that you may surface again in another way, but for today and perhaps this week, she wants you to be at peace.
Ego, stop picking on the small things that you have gone through, Ego can you please stop worrying about the people that are gossiping you, about the confrontations you had with your boss, the misunderstanding with your friends. She wants you to know that the divorce was inevitable - at the end of the day you, and she/he knows that that was not the right path for you anyway, but now my dear ego, you have buried yourself in so much pain and frozen everything even the sun. You have now been trapped in yourself everything that was once believed in to be good has now become evil because of that small change of plans, that word spoken from his or her ego is the very words you wanted to hear because it will feed you for a long, long time. You are now born into disbelieve and have stopped trusting anyone. You know very well that you are only fighting with yourself and nothing to do with the real person she/he is.
My inner person has just told me that from the beginning of time you've been able to hide the real deal from who I am. Now she has asked that I wake up, smell again, dream again, look up at the skies and enjoy its movements. She has woken within and sees everything as beautiful, she smiles at the silliest jokes, she now smells the dust and the grass, she sees the beauty in my children and loved their little mistakes. She doesn't want to get angry anymore, not for the reasons you ones brought and will bring. She knows that whatever the challenges are - Will pass away. She was made perfect and will remain perfect. She loved you (ego) but Now want you to end and terminate all your duties. I am awakening and smiling again. Life is extremely good.
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